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Satisfactory Heart

It is 18 days since I was transferred to UCSD Sulpizio Cardiovascular Center. Every morning about 9am, I receive a visit from my cardiologist. This past Friday, he came by and told me they received an offer for a heart for me. They said it was a satisfactory heart. It wasn't to the quality and condition they are looking for. They passed. 

It is ABSOLUTELY CRAZY to me, that my life has gotten to this point. I went from finally getting used to the LVAD and the insanity of being connected to a constant power source and walking around with a cord, to being admitted for over two weeks awaiting a new heart. 

Damn the times have changed just a bit. I had a few tough days last week. I spent a few days very quiet. Staying in my head, wondering why I am here. Sad, that I am still here. I am a stubborn man. I know this. I am here because I have a blood clot in my heart pump. The medication that I need to constantly be on, is only available in IV drip and I am at risk for a stroke if I am not at a level to come off of that medication. 

Physically, I am walking constantly. I have no issues getting in and out of bed. I am using the restroom without help. Missy brought my LVAD shower gear and the other day, I had a shower. Showers, are absolutely amazing. They can be a frustrating procedure, but they are such a pleasure. I have them about 1x a week. I am grateful to have those couple minutes to myself and just enjoy. (See below for shower clips).

Mentally, I am great. I am overall, feeling great. I have been doing my best to prepare myself mentally for this surgery. There is no schedule. No set date. No prep. It can happen at ANY minute. I can be on my daily walk and the doctors come up to bring me to the operating room. I try not to do too much planning. This is my new routine. This is my new life.

It's Monday, be grateful for your Monday. You are subconsciously experiencing your day. You are in your routine. It is so crazy how it can all change without your consent. Enjoy.

Currently Listening to: Explosions in the Sky - Warrior